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I envy those people who just don't give a damn.</div>
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I have spent many months and more money than I would care to admit in therapy discussing my issues with people pleasing. As much as I'd like to tell you that I have clear boundaries and priorities and don't let other people's expectations shake me, I don't. I've gotten better- you have to when you juggle parenting, working, graduate school, and family. I know I can't please everyone, but I spend a lot of time agonizing over how to juggle life- asking permission from two out of three superiors to take this night off or turn this in late or leave early. </div>
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Who's been there with me? Your kid gets sick, can't go to daycare. You take the day off. Your hubby gets sick and now you're taking care of two with a paper due in three days. Just as everyone is feeling better, your throat feels like it's on fire and you have to take another day off. </div>
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While you're out, you miss two important deadlines and your kid eats goldfish and yogurt for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. </div>
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I realize that I may be perceived as a flake, even when I feel like I work my ass off everyday. </div>
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My parents have been so wonderful to keep reminding me that it's a season. And I'm sure when and if we have another child, I'll wonder what the heck I was so stressed out about back then when I only had one. </div>
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I guess what I'm hoping is that my husband and I aren't the only jugglers here- that other people out there feel pulled in twelve different directions. </div>
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The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-77752895288663256572014-10-03T17:55:00.002-07:002014-10-03T17:55:52.974-07:00Here's to all the things you won't remember...At precisely 10:58 am (or 10:57?) tomorrow, you will be exactly a year old. I do not have your father's way with words, but I do have a year full of memories that I want to make sure I record before they disappear.<br />
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Here are 365 things I remember about this year, one for each day you have blessed us with your life.</div>
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1) You were a spitfire from the first minute I held you. I remember thinking you smelled really good, and that you were really pretty, and that I was so happy that you were actually a girl and I didn't have to go back and figure out a boy's name.<br />
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2) The nurse's first instructions to me as she wheeled me to the recovery room were to feed you every 2-3 hours during the day and 3-4 hours at night. What a joke. You didn't sleep a 4 hour stretch until you were 6 months old. You also didn't go 3 hours without eating until maybe last week. I took this picture of you on our first night together. Everyone had left, and I was awake with you. You refused to let me put you in that weird hospital Tupperware, so I spent two nights holding you in my arms, but terrified I would drop you, so I didn't sleep. This was the moment I remember falling in love. I still think you look really pretty here.<br />
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3) You still love it when I babywear. Thank goodness, because sometimes it's the only way this mama gets anything done.<br />
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4) You turned me into a hippie mama. You slept on me for the first four months of your life. Yes, on my chest. For months. (I thought I would miss that but...I don't. It was really sweet but also exhausting.) You also were a nursing champ. I'm not going to get all militant about breastfeeding, but it has been the one thing in this entire year I have felt that we really got the hang of.<br />
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5) From day one, you've always made your will very clear. I spent countless hours with you wrapped in a Moby, doing mini-squats and lunges to keep you from crying. You used to hate riding in the car until, that is, we discovered your love of Taylor Swift music. I will forever be indebted to her for quieting my sweet baby. Sometimes you yell at me until I get down on the floor and play hide and go seek with you. I think you're a force to be reckoned with.<br />
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6) You love to play the piano, the xylophone, the Baby Einstein radio...here's hoping you got some of your daddy's musical genes, because your mama can't carry a tune in a bucket.<br />
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7) I'm really thankful that you like to laugh with me. Otherwise, I'd feel even more awkward about the silly faces I make in public, or the number of times I jump out from behind a door and yell "BOO!" to your utter delight. I hope I'm not on <i>The Truman Show. </i><br />
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8) You turned our worlds upside down. This year hasn't been easy. If we had sat down with a financial planner in 2013, he (or she) would have LAUGHED at us for getting pregnant while we were both in school and employed as a writer and a public servant.<br />
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So here's to you, my darling Scarlett fox. To celebrate, I have baked you a cake (allergen free, of course), thus finally showing you that my love language is truly carbohydrate based. May we always share a love of chocolate cake and sarcasm.The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-32651429330274508182014-09-25T17:30:00.000-07:002014-09-25T17:30:13.075-07:00Stress Eating This is the list of books I read this summer for graduate school and in preparation for my new job:<br />
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<i>The Accidental Teacher </i>by Eric Mandel<br />
<i>Drive </i>by Daniel Pink<br />
<i>Strengthsfinder 2.0 </i>by Tom Rath<br />
<i>Everyday Teacher Leadership: Taking Action Where You Are </i>by Michelle Collay<br />
<i>Effective Supervision: Supporting the Art and Science of Teaching </i>by Robert Marzano<br />
<i>Improbable Scholars: The Rebirth of the Great American School System and a Strategy for America's Schools </i>by David Kirp<br />
<i>Multiplication is for White People: Raising Expectations for Other People's Children </i>by Lisa Delpit<br />
<i>Reframing the Path to School Leadership: A Guide for Teachers and Principals </i>by Lee Bolman and Terrence Deal<br />
<i>Interactions: Collaboration Skills for School Professionals </i>by Marilyn Friend and Lynn Cook<br />
<i>The Essential Conversation: What Parents and Teachers Can Learn from Each Other </i>by Sarah Lawrence-Lightfoot<br />
<i>Crucial Conversations: Tools for Talking When Stakes are High</i> by Kerry Patterson, Joseph Grenny, Ron McMillan, and Al Switzler<br />
<i>Purposeful Co-Teaching: Real Cases and Effective Strategies</i> by Gregory Conderman,<span style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;"> </span>Mary V. Bresnahan,<span style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;"> and </span>Theresa Pedersen<br />
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But sometimes working together for a common goal can be difficult. I'm learning how to communicate a shared vision and support and serve teachers in a new capacity, but I'm only a few weeks in. I struggle with hoping I'm doing a good job. I'm not sure if this is people pleasing or being a reflective learner, but either way, it can lead to one eating one's own weight in candy corn. Not me, of course. It's just a possibility of which one should be aware.<br />
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This evening, as I sit tensely on my couch enjoying the fermented fruits of California while I pray my daughter will settle herself to sleep and thus my blood pressure will return to a healthier level, I am thankful for the opportunity to grow.<br />
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As I coached my students, no one has yet arrived. In my classroom, I attempted to create a safe environment in which mistakes were accepted and viewed as springboards for change. But that advice can be hard to swallow. The vulnerability required to humbly grow is challenging. I hope I can work to create the safe environment that allows for meaningful change.<br />
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<br />The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-60485077409889892572014-09-22T17:12:00.001-07:002014-09-23T17:04:20.364-07:00Balancing ActWell, friends, for those of you following along at home, we have just completed month one of my New Job.<br />
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I spent six wonderful and challenging years as a classroom teacher, but this year, I was given the opportunity to work four days a week and coordinate our magnet program and also work with intervention.<br />
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There's thankful, and then there's <i>thankful. </i>And that is how I feel about this new opportunity.<br />
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I love teaching, and my heart will always be in the classroom. But this is also my thesis year, and my girl will only be this little once, and I needed to take a break. The thing about classroom teaching, as I'm sure you all know, is that it is rarely confined to the hours of 8 am to 3:30 pm. The hours spent on parent conferences, extra duties, lesson planning, grading papers, writing report cards, and general worry for each child can be exhausting.<br />
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Friends, I can't tell you how good it does my heart to have <i>time. </i><br />
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This weekend, I met a friend at a park. I bought bread and sweet potatoes at the Farmer's Market. We went on three walks and played on the swings in the backyard and also made two batches of pumpkin muffins. I did not grade a single paper or plan a single lesson.<br />
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<br />The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-43524690268177575722014-09-01T05:47:00.001-07:002014-09-23T17:05:12.713-07:00How I spent my Labor Day vacationLast night I was awoken at 1am to the familiar sounds of my daughter fussing. For those of you who know us, Joel and I seemed to have bred an energetic spitfire who doesn't take to sleeping on her own. Yes, I have tried <i>that</i> and no it did not work.<br />
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On this Labor Day, I want to acknowledge all those mamas out there who are covered in puke, folding their third load of laundry this morning, and succumbing to the sweet silence that an episode of <i>Curious George </i>can bring. </div>
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Enter this new favorite product-the On Guard beadlets. This cute little package included some sort of immune boosting wonder, because I took a couple a day for a few days and I'm happy to report that nary a tissue was used! It wasn't an instant cure, but I definitely never got the dreaded cold that invariably follows the sore throat. Bonus: they taste like Christmas! </div>
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Blame it on my upbringing, my elementary school professional experience, or my burgeoning type A personality, but I am constantly aware of the rapid passing of <b><i>time</i></b>.<br>
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When I was in college, I read this book by John Piper called <i>Don't Waste Your Life. </i>In all honesty, I read the back cover and first two pages, which is generally how things go with me and John Piper. It kind of messed me up because ever since then, I have been terrified of wasting time.<br>
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In an attempt to describe how my brain works, I tend to visualize units of time like Tetris pieces that need to fit together perfectly. I wake up every morning trying to guide those little pieces into comforting alignment.<br>
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I have written before about how I am learning how to sit and be still, and I say <i>learning </i>because it lets me get away with not actually<i> "getting" it.</i><br>
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One of my favorite things about my daughter is that she doesn't care about time. She doesn't care that it's Nine O'Clock and Should Be Nap Time because she's ready to play. She does this really cute thing where she'll be nursing and suddenly stop, look me in the eye, and start cracking up. She's not thinking about the fact that if she doesn't eat now, that will push mommy's departure time back 10 minutes, making her late for a meeting.<br>
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But mostly, I'm thankful that she's teaching me that time is less of a thing to be managed and more of a gift to be joyfully given.<div><br></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9UVGBnA2CPyR1b34RFPhnY5h2qvVbqtCTZm5hKQ2wUwyLpJHOL3cfW-m2I00x_4YWeUhONK9oP9MKM9bSZvbZcmfVdGmypXx4rGd1opvqu246iCQQSJUOpfuIZJrzxQLyhDNRk4_1AfeJ/s640/blogger-image-1298566776.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9UVGBnA2CPyR1b34RFPhnY5h2qvVbqtCTZm5hKQ2wUwyLpJHOL3cfW-m2I00x_4YWeUhONK9oP9MKM9bSZvbZcmfVdGmypXx4rGd1opvqu246iCQQSJUOpfuIZJrzxQLyhDNRk4_1AfeJ/s640/blogger-image-1298566776.jpg"></a></div><br></div>The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-71066740634868546052014-08-17T09:36:00.001-07:002014-08-17T16:33:23.826-07:00What a mamaAfter a stressful week of working 40+ hours, barely seeing my little one, and being hit with one "lemon" after another, I let my hubs put the baby to bed and drove over to the house of a dear friend. After putting her sweet daughter to bed, we poured glasses of red wine and ate freshly baked chocolate chip cookies which I'm sure have healing properties, both physically and spiritually. And after hashing out our lives of late, we anxiously spoke of our relationships with our girls and hoped that our daughters would love us and we would love them and we would have sweet relationships with them into adulthood.<br />
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Something I couldn't have understood until becoming a parents myself is that I am legitimately obsessed with my daughter. Think what you want, but when I look at her, I see the most beautiful little girl in the whole world. Thinking of her slamming the door on me after a hormone-fueled argument or knowing that she may see my name pop up on her caller ID (or whatever they'll have in 15 years) and not taking my call...well, it's almost more than I can handle.</div>
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We thought of moms and daughters who have good relationships, knowing that every relationship has its flaws and trials. They shared one common theme.</div>
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My own mom is the daughter of a Brit and went to boarding school in England, so she was my "mum." </div>
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Mum prayed with me and answered all my God questions and although she has always worked full-time, I have never felt that she didn't have time for me. I remember talking with her while she cooked dinner or ironed in the kitchen, and even now I'm sure I take up way too much of her time by calling on the phone a few times a week. </div>
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What a blessing it is to have a mother whose heart is close to the Lord's. How much I hope that my daughter can say that of me. </div>
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The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-54383583364431075022014-08-16T14:06:00.000-07:002014-08-17T08:52:56.902-07:00Why I am The Rookie<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">My sweet husband believes I should not dub myself as the Rookie.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As I begin my 7th year as a professional educator, I am leaving the classroom that I love in order to pursue three things:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">1) More time at home. I will be working 4 days out of the week, leaving one sweet extra day to play with my little girl.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">2) Time to complete my thesis year of graduate school. I'm extremely excited about the ideas swirling around my head in this arena!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">3) An opportunity to grow professionally as a magnet coordinator and intervention specialist.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">While I have years of classroom experience, I am a new mom. I am new to this job. And while I am anxiously excited, I am ready to start a new journey! It seems, however, that I've been "starting a new journey" every year for the past 10 or so. And thus, regardless of my station in life, I hope I remain the Rookie.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> This year. Work during nap time with toys in the background.... It's crazy and I love it.</span>The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-50031019614431216912014-02-23T16:44:00.001-08:002014-08-17T08:53:27.216-07:00Filled with joy<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I have a sweet friend with whom I share a picnic table during recess time. She and I talk about love, life, God, our dreams. I love her because of her authenticity, and the fact that I can be authentic with her. We all need friends like that.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">This week, in between refereeing soccer spats and oh-so-kindly reminding students to stop running into the carpool loop, she asked me, "What brings you joy right now?"</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I thought about the big areas in my life right now. Her sweet question caused me to reflect all week on how much I have to be thankful for.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I love my job. It's hard and exhausting and sometimes frustrating but I truly love my job. I am passionate about public education, and even with all the craziness surrounding my profession lately, I have a lot of fight left in me. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I love being a student. I couldn't wait to start my masters after completing my undergrad degree. I'm curious by nature (and nurture- my mom is the same way!) and I get really excited about learning something new. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I love my family. I have more than a husband. I have a best friend. And my daughter is the most beautiful creature I have ever laid eyes on. Spending time with them is pure delight.</span><br />
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The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-44460296386362578982014-02-18T10:43:00.002-08:002014-08-17T08:54:05.604-07:00Daylight and Quaker Oats<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">There's this Quaker granola bar commercial that features a haggard looking mom who pours OJ in her kid's cereal and groans when she realizes she has donned two different pointy-toed heels to work. All of her problems are miraculously solved, however, when a hot air balloon appears outside of her window, bearing gifts of dried fruit and granola in a neatly wrapped package. Suddenly, she is bright and beautiful again, even shooting hoops with the fam! The wonders of oats, I tell ya.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">I have this strong and annoying desire for a quick fix in my life. I want my solution to sail in on a hot air balloon, too.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">Maybe it's our modern American life, but I doubt it. The Israelites were the same when they built a golden calf when Moses was up getting those commandments (dude, I'll be right back) or despaired that God didn't bring them swiftly to the promised land.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">It's the condition of our human souls, I think, to desperately want an end to suffering. I'm not sure the desire for quick fixes is a bad thing. I mean, if healing can come quickly, by all means, PLEASE bring it. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 13px;">But the real problem for me is my lack of trust in the Lord and impatience by <i>working outside of His will</i> for a quick answer.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">I'm in a season now. It's one in which I have blessing upon blessing but fear upon fear that it will all go away. It's hard to talk about but I imagine I'm not the only one that deals with anxiety. It's also not the first time this has happened, but I'm supposed to be able to pray Philippians 4:6 and all my mental anguish will disappear. But it doesn't. Or maybe I should take a pill, and it will all be better. But it isn't.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">I am in this struggle to discern if I have a chemical imbalance or a spiritual one, and in realizing the answer is probably both, I'm tempted to despair.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 13px;">Because I really want a quick fix. I want to take a special pill or pray a verse and be able to sleep at night.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 13px;">There's this Barenaked ladies song </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 13px;">from the 90's. One line goes "You gotta kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight." Answers may take a while. They may not sail in on a balloon. They may not even come this side of heaven. But it will happen. For we serve the One who is the Light of the world (John 9:5)</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 13px;">I think maybe this is one where I'm just gonna have to sit here for a while, kicking at darkness, praying for Daylight.</span></span>The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-74069985269134779132014-02-10T14:55:00.002-08:002014-08-17T08:55:06.313-07:00We pause from our regularly scheduled deep thoughts to bring you...<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The much requested post about my freezer meals since returning to work.</span><br />
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I am a graduate student, full-time teacher, and mommy. I used to be busy. Now I'm just crazed. I'm also doing this thing where I'm trying to lose the last eight pounds of the fifty I put on with the Sweet Potato, so in addition to doing the Bikini Body Mommy workouts (found <a href="http://www.bikinibodymommy.com/">here</a>), I'm trying to eat at home more.</span><br />
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I get home around 4, just in time for Sweet Tater's last nap of the day. No way on this green earth am I going to bang around pots at pans at this time, or I will face the wrath of a Grumpy Baby and ain't nobody got time for that.</span><br />
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She wakes up around 5:30, and I wash out her bottles from the day, workout next to her while she tummy-times-it-up, nurse her, bathe her, and put her to bed. At this point, I lesson plan or do homework and pass out at 8:30. So yeah, cooking is low on the totem pole of priorities.</span><br />
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We're over a month into this new system, and here is what has worked. Twice now I have had a marathon cooking session wherein I destroy my kitchen and stock my freezer.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">1) I don't have recipes for everything. I'll link to the ones I have, but mostly, the meals are easy and made up.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">2) I use a lot of cheap and quick ingredients. Russet potatoes instead of red, fresh kale, jasmine rice instead of brown (cooks faster), and ground beef instead of stew beef. I also buy canned beans like they're going out of style, even though dry are cheaper. But not faster. You catching my drift?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">3) I bought those foil tins from the Dollar Tree and also some gallon freezer bags. Bags of soup sounds gross but it is what it is.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">4) Sides include Jiffy cornbread (can't beat 33 cents a box), sweet potatoes (sounds eerie now, eh?), and bagged salads if they're on sale.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Buy the huge tube (ew) of ground beef and brown it all. Divide into half lb or 3/4 lb portions. Whatever you don't use can be frozen and used for a quick pasta and meat sauce dinner. I ended up with 6 bags from a 3 pound tube (ew). I also buy the bags of frozen chicken. They honestly gross me out unless I put them in the crock pot and they're cooked to shreds. Then I used them for the chili and tamale pie. Roasted red peppers are super easy, so when bell peppers are on sale I buy a ton. Then I throw them in pretty much every recipe.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Chili pie (basically the small amount of chili I had left in a pie crust with cheese on top)</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><a href="http://www.thekitchn.com/healthy-snack-recipe-5-ingredi-156571">Oatmeal breakfast bars </a>*</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 17.25px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Roasted red pepper quiche**</span><br />
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*I've made these a few times and am obsessed. They're really cheap and easy. Unlike me. Ha. I mash up 3 bananas, throw in oats, a little sugar, 2 eggs, and whatever random baking ingredients I have (chocolate chips, coconut, cranberries, etc). I ran out of vanilla so I used almond extract. And, because I'm nursing, I added four tablespoons of brewer's yeast and a few tablespoons wheat germ. It makes them kinda bitter, but I can smear peanut butter on them in the morning and for about 350 calories, I have a pretty filling breakfast.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">**Quiche is one of those catch-alls. I just throw my leftover veggies, meat, and cheese in with four eggs and about a cup of milk and pour it in a pie crust. So I don't really have a recipe, but I make it all the time.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sometimes I make extra filling and bake it in muffin tins, sans the pie crust. It's a quick breakfast that way.</span><br />
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Total for groceries was about $180, including our breakfast and lunch stuff.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 1.15; white-space: pre-wrap;">Beef and rice casserole (3) (made from leftover rice, veggies, and ground beef)</span></div>
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I came home from grocery shopping ready to tackle round two of freezer meal cooking. It was a little hectic, but here's what I did:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">-In the oven, I put bacon, cornbread, red peppers, and chicken breasts to bake. It was a little crowded in there!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">-In the crockpot, I added a bag of that frozen chicken.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">-I browned 3 lbs of beef, boiled two boxes of pasta, and boiled a bunch of potatoes.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">-When I had room on the stove top, I made stove top stuffing, sauteed celery and a bag of chopped onions, made rice andd two bags of mixed veggies.</span><br />
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As things finished, I put them in large ziplocs or tupperware in the fridge. <span style="line-height: 1.15;">The next day, I threw the components together. For example, the pot pie is basically chicken, mixed veggies, celery, and a cream of chicken soup. The pasta was some mushrooms and tomatoes (I didn't even cook them...), chicken, pasta, a jar of pesto and a jar of alfredo, and some shredded cheese. </span></span><br />
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I labeled the tins and threw it all in the freezer. I'm amazed if you stuck with me this far!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Here's your prize: a picture of my freezer:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Happy cooking!</span></div>
The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-11877711129417015432014-02-09T15:27:00.001-08:002014-08-17T08:55:30.056-07:00The Old and the New<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.15; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">1) sponsered ads for weight loss products. guess they have me pegged.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">2) friends with babies. lots of babies eating rice cereal for the first time or rolling over or staring blank-eyed into the iPhone camera for a mommy/baby selfie. i love every picture because i am guilty of posting dozens of snapshots of my Sweet Potato, and i now understand the joy behind each picture.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">there was a certain amount of dying to self (which is a Christian way of saying </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: italic; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">suck it up</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">) when I got married. my goals now had to be meshed with Our goals and my desires sometimes took a backseat to serve my spouse. i say </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: italic; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">sometimes </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">because i have a strong desire to still Do My Own Thing and Voice That Assertively.</span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></b>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">but The Sweet Potato has a much louder voice and stronger will. so when she came along, suddenly, i did not exist for any purpose other than keeping her alive and comfortable. </span></div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></b>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">in my first few weeks post-partum, i realized how many things were now in my Old Life. i had done my fair share of traveling. i stayed out till all hours with best friends on the weekends. i had casually gone shopping at Target with nothing but a debit card and a cell phone. </span></div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></b>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">my daughter, until very recently, nursed every two hours round the clock. in the first few weeks, she seemed to nurse every hour. i felt like i couldn’t see friends, go on car rides that lasted longer than 7-10 minutes, or have a conversation with the husband. i realize this is what it means to have a newborn baby, and i knew it would change things, but until it happens, it’s a little shocking. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">now that we are working on settling the Sweet Potato into her nighttime routine in a crib, any social engagement after 7pm seems like a long ago dream. </span></div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></b>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></b>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">but the Good things in my life are just that-costly. marriage has been costly. my education (holy cow yes it has been) is costly. and the Sweet Potato is costly. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><span style="font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">which got me wondering about the Best Good Thing-my relationship with Jesus. how costly has it been? typing that is a bit scary. but leaves me wondering….my sacrifices as a mother have just begun but they pale in comparison to the treasure of having my daughter. how much more would i like to say that i have forsaken the good things to treasure the Ultimate. </span></span>The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-54040988086127397012014-02-04T13:48:00.001-08:002014-08-17T08:55:47.534-07:00As I Sit Pumping<br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">You may feel weird about that picture but now that it's a daily routine for me, it's about as regular as brushing my teeth. Actually, it's more regular than brushing my teeth.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">* It's also one of those things moms do all the time but nobody really talks about, and as breastfeeding produced an inordinate amount of anxiety within me during my first few weeks as a mommy, I'm determined to communicate openly about it so that other new mommies don't feel nervous or awkward to do or discuss what is just about the most natural thing in the world. Soapbox over.*</span><br />
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Anywho, </span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I pump twice a day during work. I'm grateful to work in a school that gives and gives and gives, so I have 15 minutes of coverage every morning and a planning period every afternoon to make sure my kid has the benefits of breast milk when I'm working hard for da money.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">That means twice a day, I have to stop everything I'm doing and sit very still in a locked room.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">It can be a slight inconvenience, especially if I'm </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">in mental flow and want to finish a task. Because an object in motion will stay in motion, I tend to come in like a wrecking ball (yep, I went there) during the school day. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">So basically what happens is I'm in the middle of grading, or typing an email, or doing some other Monumentally Important Task, and I look at the clock and realize it's time to go. Everyday I think about skipping it, but The Sweet Potato has this weird thing where she has to eat every few hours. I dunno. We'll ask the doctor about it. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">This time, however, has become a blessing. That's a Christian way of saying it's a good thing that maybe I didn't see before.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Think. Pray. Be still.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">The Lord has built in pauses in my day out of His grace, knowing I'm not so good at them myself. I love how He knows what we need even before we ask Him. </span><br />
<br />The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-20531917876754269662014-02-04T13:32:00.000-08:002014-08-17T08:56:09.200-07:00my mind is a hostile work environment<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.15; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">here we are, knee-deep into the hustlebustle of work, school, and mothering. i a little bit love my life right now, although it’s full of craziness. here is my reasoning: i love my daughter and i love my husband and i love teaching and i love learning and pretty much that’s all i do. i try to maintain that perspective when i’m super duper tired. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">last week, we were blessed with four snow days, only one of which included dangerous driving conditions for our neck of the woods. i still had workdays, but was able to spend extra time snuggling with my daughter. and filling up with an extra dose of you shouldas and oughttas. how annoying. why does the highly prized beast of productivity an</span><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 1.15; white-space: pre-wrap;">d efficiency smack right into the blessing of rest and relationship? will it always be this way? </span></span></div>
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The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-39216888480407302642014-02-03T14:20:00.001-08:002014-08-17T08:56:43.444-07:00on becoming type a<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.15; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 1.15; white-space: pre-wrap;">my beautiful sweet potato is asleep on my chest. i fight daily that anxiety to run around and get things done. she has caused me to stop and slow down because i literally cannot get up when she is sleeping. i can stare at the dirty floor or my daughter's chubby cheeks. that floor isn't going anywhere, but soon my sweet potato will. </span></div>
The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467241883650561977.post-25914658840038659892014-02-03T14:11:00.001-08:002014-08-17T08:57:12.685-07:00New Year's Eve Post. In February.<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.15; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><span style="font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">God wasn’t absent last year. He didn’t forget about us or delight in the heartache, but I can now see His hand in a way I didn’t last year. My vision was cloudy. I can see a little more clearly now. 2012 was not a cup of total bitterness, just as there were not-so-sweet times in 2013. But now I can see that in Him, my cup can be full.</span></span>The Rookiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10736487536330298305noreply@blogger.com0